Comeback!!!

After hiding myself in Penang for the past few days, lots of thoughts came in and out. I thought of lots of stuffs, talk to few people, and take a GOOD rest after those hectic moments. Guess good foods helps to clear up your mind. LoL.

After lots of thinking and planning, I've decided to stay at TARC and do what I came back to do. Since I joined APR mainly because of Events Management, so I guess I shall never let those small pressure kick me off that easily. Thanks to all supportive comments from my fellow mates, you guys seriously plays a major role in my decision making. And not to forget Mr C. Never ever cross my mind that you'll read that post. I was just crapping and releasing everything thru this site. Haha. Paiseh ah for all the 'not so polite' words.

I learnt something from this lesson, "When you have a GOAL, just go for it, no hesitation, no turning back and F off those losers who tries to stop you". My raise me up with this quote, "Never be afraid of falling down, just remember to stand up and fight what you've lost". Guess I can't dissapoint the most important woman in my life's education.

Tomorrow, errr... I mean later we gonna have this post mortem meeting with the agency. Hopefully everything goes smoothly, without and hair pulling or cursing around. Enough of drama and faking-it. Hopefully with their 'experience', they can at least point out something more relevant to our event. No point talking bout personal stuffs. Pro sikit la beb...

My boss used to say, "Never argue with a fool, cause he'll bring you down and beat you with his experience of being a fool at that level". Kenny and I love this so much that we use it everytime we met a fool talking fool language to us. Hahahaha... The quote was real headshot. For my version, "Without fools the rest of us could not succeed". So the lesson is, In order to fight back those losers (a.k.a FOOLS), instead use their fool-ness to improve yourself. If you fight back that makes you no difference with them as a FOOL. The moral is to learn from a FOOL in order not to be like them. Haha.

Sorry if Ive created panic to anyone. I know I sound so pussy complaining everything to everyone. Haha. Blogging a real good way to RELEASE!!! Haha. Release as in releasing stress not release that release ok? LoL. 5 hours of sleep, 4 hours of driving back to KL. Nite all. Cheers. Merdeka Merdeka Merdeka. Im BACK yo....

I Screwed

It was a hectic day, full of surprises. Good and Bad. This is like a KO punch in my face. Complaints from here and there. Top, bottom, left, right, internal and even EXTERNAL. Yea, its all definitely the 'effect' of SOS Earth. All I want is to make sure SOS Earth is capable of at least match Movie-ing Ahead and TLC. APR under Josephine and Cherry did a great job on their respective event. I just dont want APR to lose their credibility of handling events after I lead them. SOS Earth was a success as what everyone can see, but it's like a nice, clean and comfortable jamban but all the pipes underneath it are actually stucked and jammed. I've did my best, give all out I can and what I thought I did was for the sake of the event, but end up BACKFIRE.

Yet again, I was fucked by OTHER department's members because of their miscommunication with their leaders. What The Fuck do you guys want? God Damn It, for FUCK sake why can't all these assholes think outside of the box? It's just a minor problem and yet it was like everything to them. I was so close (SO FUCKING CLOSE) to give those assholes a slap on their face. The leaders, all of us, work our ass off for all of you guys and yet just because a small minor shit you guys take it like the World is ending. We are humans too, we have the same level education as you guys. If you yourself can assure you won't be doing the same thing, why don't you guys take the job at the beginning? Why must you talk cock all the time? If you can't do shit besides talking cock, JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP and hide under your grandma's skirt.

The best of all, I got complaits from the EXTERNAL. Boy, they really know how to act. Learn a lesson from this event, people sometimes can be over-creative of what they do. Or should I say Whenever one is in trouble, the best solution is to throw a black sheep to cover the shit. Never judge a book by it's cover. Sometimes I do really agree with this. Just seriously very dissapointed with all those so called experienced people. Speechless.

Maybe it's all my fault. Face problem. Anger management. Maybe I don't even deserved to lead as no matter what I'm still an outsider. Seems like the word "I'm Arrogant" will forever stick on my face. Fuck it. Everything is just out of my control. A wise man used to say, "To solve a problem, start by asking yourself, what you did wrong". So I guess before I counter back anything its better if I improve myself.

All I'm having in my mind is to switch to another college or maybe continue with my career. Finally, I do gave up. Sometimes, its good to surrender. No more "I want to win because I dont want to lose" spirit, its just fading away. no more Together Everyone Achieves More semangat in me. Everyone is busy saving their own ass and pointing each other. Maybe thats PR, maybe thats just my assumption. Maybe?? Maybe all this while I gave it all out for SOS Earth was something wrong? Maybe?? Anything will always be a MAYBE??

As what I've posted in my Fb few days back, it is human's nature to be Greedy. Maybe my quote was right. My faith for all this is fading away day by day. I thought I could fix it but seems like I just can't make it. Maybe switching to HELP with my mates would be a better way. Sometimes giving up earlier is better than being defeated worse at the end. I admit I'm a failure in this. I just can't take it anymore. Life is getting hectic day by day, time by time. I don't see any true friends anymore.

Fuck all this, I screwed my friendship, I screwed my life yet again, I SCREWED MYSELF.

Adv: S.O.S Earth

11th & 12th August 2009
TAR College Main Campus Hall
0930 - 1700

SOS Earth is an college event by the Advance Diploma in Public Relations, Year 1 students of Tunku Abdul Rahman College, Kuala Lumpur Main Campus in collaboration with the students of Advance Diploma in Advertising, Year 2 as the Creative Agency. The objective of the event is to educate the youth especially TARCian about environmental conservation. There are 5 main elements which will be covered by this event:

Forest

Land & Natural Resources

Ocean

River

Air

to be continue.......