Scream All Out

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's a fucked up world

It's a fucked up world, what a fucked up place,
Everybody's judged by their fucked up face,
Fucked up dreams, fucked up life,
Fucked up kid, with a fucked up knife,
Fucked up moms, and fucked up dads,
Thats a fucked up cop, with a fucked up badge,
Fucked up job, with fucked up pay,
Fucked up boss, is a fucked up day,
Fucked up breast, fucked up lies,
All my niggas, in the biggest, got the facs of life .

Comeback!!!

After hiding myself in Penang for the past few days, lots of thoughts came in and out. I thought of lots of stuffs, talk to few people, and take a GOOD rest after those hectic moments. Guess good foods helps to clear up your mind. LoL.

After lots of thinking and planning, I've decided to stay at TARC and do what I came back to do. Since I joined APR mainly because of Events Management, so I guess I shall never let those small pressure kick me off that easily. Thanks to all supportive comments from my fellow mates, you guys seriously plays a major role in my decision making. And not to forget Mr C. Never ever cross my mind that you'll read that post. I was just crapping and releasing everything thru this site. Haha. Paiseh ah for all the 'not so polite' words.

I learnt something from this lesson, "When you have a GOAL, just go for it, no hesitation, no turning back and F off those losers who tries to stop you". My raise me up with this quote, "Never be afraid of falling down, just remember to stand up and fight what you've lost". Guess I can't dissapoint the most important woman in my life's education.

Tomorrow, errr... I mean later we gonna have this post mortem meeting with the agency. Hopefully everything goes smoothly, without and hair pulling or cursing around. Enough of drama and faking-it. Hopefully with their 'experience', they can at least point out something more relevant to our event. No point talking bout personal stuffs. Pro sikit la beb...

My boss used to say, "Never argue with a fool, cause he'll bring you down and beat you with his experience of being a fool at that level". Kenny and I love this so much that we use it everytime we met a fool talking fool language to us. Hahahaha... The quote was real headshot. For my version, "Without fools the rest of us could not succeed". So the lesson is, In order to fight back those losers (a.k.a FOOLS), instead use their fool-ness to improve yourself. If you fight back that makes you no difference with them as a FOOL. The moral is to learn from a FOOL in order not to be like them. Haha.

Sorry if Ive created panic to anyone. I know I sound so pussy complaining everything to everyone. Haha. Blogging a real good way to RELEASE!!! Haha. Release as in releasing stress not release that release ok? LoL. 5 hours of sleep, 4 hours of driving back to KL. Nite all. Cheers. Merdeka Merdeka Merdeka. Im BACK yo....

I Screwed

It was a hectic day, full of surprises. Good and Bad. This is like a KO punch in my face. Complaints from here and there. Top, bottom, left, right, internal and even EXTERNAL. Yea, its all definitely the 'effect' of SOS Earth. All I want is to make sure SOS Earth is capable of at least match Movie-ing Ahead and TLC. APR under Josephine and Cherry did a great job on their respective event. I just dont want APR to lose their credibility of handling events after I lead them. SOS Earth was a success as what everyone can see, but it's like a nice, clean and comfortable jamban but all the pipes underneath it are actually stucked and jammed. I've did my best, give all out I can and what I thought I did was for the sake of the event, but end up BACKFIRE.

Yet again, I was fucked by OTHER department's members because of their miscommunication with their leaders. What The Fuck do you guys want? God Damn It, for FUCK sake why can't all these assholes think outside of the box? It's just a minor problem and yet it was like everything to them. I was so close (SO FUCKING CLOSE) to give those assholes a slap on their face. The leaders, all of us, work our ass off for all of you guys and yet just because a small minor shit you guys take it like the World is ending. We are humans too, we have the same level education as you guys. If you yourself can assure you won't be doing the same thing, why don't you guys take the job at the beginning? Why must you talk cock all the time? If you can't do shit besides talking cock, JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP and hide under your grandma's skirt.

The best of all, I got complaits from the EXTERNAL. Boy, they really know how to act. Learn a lesson from this event, people sometimes can be over-creative of what they do. Or should I say Whenever one is in trouble, the best solution is to throw a black sheep to cover the shit. Never judge a book by it's cover. Sometimes I do really agree with this. Just seriously very dissapointed with all those so called experienced people. Speechless.

Maybe it's all my fault. Face problem. Anger management. Maybe I don't even deserved to lead as no matter what I'm still an outsider. Seems like the word "I'm Arrogant" will forever stick on my face. Fuck it. Everything is just out of my control. A wise man used to say, "To solve a problem, start by asking yourself, what you did wrong". So I guess before I counter back anything its better if I improve myself.

All I'm having in my mind is to switch to another college or maybe continue with my career. Finally, I do gave up. Sometimes, its good to surrender. No more "I want to win because I dont want to lose" spirit, its just fading away. no more Together Everyone Achieves More semangat in me. Everyone is busy saving their own ass and pointing each other. Maybe thats PR, maybe thats just my assumption. Maybe?? Maybe all this while I gave it all out for SOS Earth was something wrong? Maybe?? Anything will always be a MAYBE??

As what I've posted in my Fb few days back, it is human's nature to be Greedy. Maybe my quote was right. My faith for all this is fading away day by day. I thought I could fix it but seems like I just can't make it. Maybe switching to HELP with my mates would be a better way. Sometimes giving up earlier is better than being defeated worse at the end. I admit I'm a failure in this. I just can't take it anymore. Life is getting hectic day by day, time by time. I don't see any true friends anymore.

Fuck all this, I screwed my friendship, I screwed my life yet again, I SCREWED MYSELF.

Adv: S.O.S Earth

11th & 12th August 2009
TAR College Main Campus Hall
0930 - 1700

SOS Earth is an college event by the Advance Diploma in Public Relations, Year 1 students of Tunku Abdul Rahman College, Kuala Lumpur Main Campus in collaboration with the students of Advance Diploma in Advertising, Year 2 as the Creative Agency. The objective of the event is to educate the youth especially TARCian about environmental conservation. There are 5 main elements which will be covered by this event:

Forest

Land & Natural Resources

Ocean

River

Air

to be continue.......

Is it worth it?

It's 6.30am in the morning, can't sleep and the blogging feel just got in. So blog sajalah.

Life has been tough recently, I did so much yet I was still treated like a fool. This is the most stressful moment in my life, so far. Every I woke up and I ask myself why am I doing this? Is this worth it? Everyday kena fu*k, diu, kan, diao, kongkek, taruh and you name it, and I've been F inside out upside down. Life after my injury was devastating.

Many kind of faces I get to see daily, many types of characteristic, and many "kind" of human I would face everyday. Who's the Good ones and Who's the Evil ones. I just can't see it. I hate to say this publicly but I have to admit, I miss my Diploma mates. We are like family, share the same views and everyone seems to work together nicely.

I thought I would be happy after being elected as the Course Rep and one of the Leader, but what is the use of being a leader yet people are "shooting" from behind? Talking cock about you just because you're not in the same batch as them. And yeah, thats the kind of world I'm living with everyday.

I experienced a funny guy came to me and told me that, "I have a lot of contacts you know? I know alot of things that happens around, you think I don't know, I actually does know a lot". I was like WTF is wrong with this guy? Save your contacts and grandma stories with your Mom. I'm not a place for you to talk cock.

My ex-boss used to say, " Never argue with a fool cos he'll bring you down to his level and beat you with his experince of being a fool at that level". Nice quote Jess. *clap*

I get to know lots of funny people after joining APR. Some are pure jokers which is real funny and some are pure PITA (Pain in the ASS). Get to know few new good friends and kinda a lot of enemies. LoL. Maybe my "get to know a new friend is better than getting an enemy" theory doesn't seems to work anymore. I'm making more enemies compared to friends. WOW!!!! I'm like Johnny Depp now, The Public Enemy. "It is easy to be brave from a safe distance". That's my message to all those @55#0|3 that thinks they are so good.

My fast and BAD temper seems to be coming back, I get frustrated and emo easily. I promised to changed my bad temper but sometimes things are getting out of hands. Sometimes there really are monkeys that really push me to the limit. I felt like slapping those GDMFs. I try to be as lenient as I can. I respect everyone's decision and opinion. But who's respecting me? The lenient I am the higher they climb up my head, and some even shit on my head. Is it really my leadership skills are that bad? Seriously this is the first time in my life I'm saying this. What on earth is hapening to me?

ARGHHH!!!! Nothing seems to be right. Whatever I do there will always be something wrong somewhere. All I want is get things done, I was Fu*ked because of someone else's mistakes. Seriously I'm really tired of all this. Felt like switching to HELP, hopefully they can HELP me from all this rubbish.

It's 7 already, leaders' meeting at 8. I just hate weekdays. All I'm hoping now is get back to the field ASAP, the place where I belongs to. December 12th is my MERDEKA day, hopefully my knee conditions is OK, this week is the 4th week I skipped physio. Sacrifise so much for being treated like a rubbish. Is it worth it?

3rd & 4th day: Standing Tall Days

My first step after 10days.

This is the design of the Physio centre, colorful leh.

This is what we call a 21yo guy learning how to walk.

Im back on da ground.

Doughnut on the board.

My dinner: Fish & Chip. Haha.

These pictures are suppose to be at the bottom of this post. Haha. Can't drag it down, Blogspot something wrong!!!

Basically, these two days is exactly like replay. The only difference is my gf is with at 3rd day and she's not with me the whole day today. I ask her not to come today because she herself also fall sick due to the hot weather and not enough rest when taking care of me. Yet again, I causing trouble to her again. Sorry dear.

As for the title, YEAH!!! I'm standing back on my feet. My physiotherapist push me to the limit because I told him that I want to recover the express way. I wanna get back to KL end of this month and go for my Advanced Diploma and hopefully get a post in the committee and the event. The routine for both days is kinda torturing and it's damn painful. But I'm pushing to the MAX because I must make sure in this 6 months I must fully recover and get back on the pitch.

They increase everything in my routine. One of it, which is my least pleasant with is the IT Machine. This machine generates small amounts of electricity and both positive and negative patch were stick to my thigh muscle to build back the muscle because I've not using my right leg for almost 10 days. So they increase from normal 35Hz to 55Hz. My whole thigh like can move by itself. Haha. Thats not the best thing, that best part is, even after the physio routine, when I get back to my bed in my ward, once in a while out of nowhere, my thigh will pull by itself. It feels like 'someone' or 'something' cubit my thigh suddenly. 1st few times I was kinda freaky cause you know la, I'm in hospital, then online online halfway like got something cubit your leg. Haha. You freak out or not? 

Then, today 3 of my roommates balik kampung at noon. Left me and an Acheh apek. The story of this guy is, he had surgery somewhere inside his cheek, maybe he's trying to PUT A SMILE ON THAT FACE. Then because of the surgery, he can't talk,eat,drink or even spit. So, the whole day, freaking day and night and especially midnight. He'll moan like a cow being tied outside of masjid during Hari Raya Korban waiting to be slaughter. Niama, damn freaking loud you know. I didn't sleep well last night. But I kesian him also, so I didn't did anything sohai on him. Felt like wanna tape his mouth and pull out his feeding tube, but kesian him la. Haha.

Doctor told me I can be discharge anytime I like, woohoo!!! But because of I fell in love with this place and the Internet connection speed, I decided not to discharge tomorrow. Haha. Jk Jk. Because I wanna push my recovery faster, so I wanna stay here so that I can attend the physio session twice a day. Kinda tired but I know I won't regret it. And insurance gonna pay all of my payment here. Haha. I got crutches made in Germany, the same used by Cristiano Ronaldo and I ask the doc to bill it in my insurance. Haha. Sorry MAA.

2nd Day of my knee surgery @ Island Hospital

6.00am: Due to painfulness yang teramat sangat sangat, I press the nurse bell for the 1st time. The nurse came in, 3 of them, all Indian(not trying to be racist) ask what I want. I'm in so much pain that I can't even talk then I just point at my knee. "Sakit ah? Kaki sakit ah?". I just nod my head, Then 3 of them without checking whats wrong just walk out and the next minute the pharmacist came in giving me pain killer pill. Niama, I thought at least one of them will help me to shift my leg cause I can't move it myself yet. *pooofffff* macam ninja, pharmacist gone also. Leaving me alone in pain, then I wanna press the bell again, see see the bell drop on the floor. Arghhh, I was so pissed off. Wanted to call my gf and mom but don't wanna make the worry, so just sit the in pain waiting if there is any nurse come in. About 5minutes later a Chinese nurse came in, shes the head of night shift. I manage to call her then she came to me and ask what happened? I told her my right leg hurts, then she massage for me, she say cause I didn't move for to whole day thats why my leg is in so much pain. Its like the whole leg on fire, I'm serious about it. Thankfully the head of nurse came in, if not I confirm GG. Haha. The pain killer starts to take effect and I manage to sit up and now I'm so damn hungry. Haha.

Here is the diagram which I edited to show what actually happened to my knee, Surprisingly Tiger Woods had the same surgery in June, 2008. The sirgery is called double bundle, which was introduced to the ortho line by Tiger Woods doctor. So basically Tiger Woods is the 1st person to have the surgery (previously they only had single bundle).

I torn my ACL and meniscus (yellow box). So in order to reconstruct back my ACL, doctor take one ligament each from my patellar tendon, both my left and right knee and reconstrust it as my new ACL. (All of our ligament consists of two ligament that curled together).

Basically, today whole day pergi sini sana the whole hospital. Both my legs can't move yet. Haiz, damn stress.

Morning: Around 9.00am after breakfast the wheelchair guy came, I ask him,"Mana pergi?". He replied,"X-ray lepas tu physio". So I try to move down to get on the wheelchair, mana tau once I try to lift my leg, niama, pain like f*ck lidat. Then the guy have to help me to lift my legs then lift me to sit on the wheelchair. Then my gf called, saying that my mom and her reach at the lift lobby. One of the lift spoilt. KNN CCB lift. Then I meet them at the lobby, mom left in a short while, my gf teman me to the X-ray room. At first I thought just an ordinary X-ray, mana tau reach the Ultrasound, check if my leg got pregnant not. Haha. I took like 5minutes to get up to the bed. Radiologist came in, scan, blood flow all clear. Then 2nd destination, bone X-ray. By the time I cure my legs I'll be dead because of radiation. Haha. 3rd round, don't know what vein scan, something like ultrasound also. Really GG.

After all the scan I need to wait for the wheelchair guy to come, my legs that time kau kau pain due to climb up and down all the X-ray bed. He came about 20minutes after the X-ray department contact him. MCB I damn dulan that time. When he came, he push me to my next destination, I-sports (physiotherapy department). Torture time, all the staffs there were in the Operating Teater yesterday to see the doctor perform. Haha. I guess all of them has already seen my DRAGON cause Im not wearing any undergarment that time. Haiz, I'm not clean anymore. Haha. The pictures will show what exactly happened in I-sports today.

After the physio session, out of sudden I was shivering like crazy, at first I thought I got fever, Then they quickly called the wheelchair guy, yet again that FUCKER took like 20minutes to reach,when he reach he forgot to bring down the wheelchair, WTF??? Then I have to wait another 10minutes due to the one of the lift out of service. Then when I reach my ward, the nurse came in and gave check my temperature, normal, but I'm still shivering like Hell. Then she gave me antibiotic, she said I got bacteria infection. After telan that pill, within 5minutes, I got mabuk then tidur like a dead man.

Noon: I woke up after the crazy pill the nurse gave me. But seriously, I'm back to normal and I'm sweating when I wake up. Damn. Haha. Then Ah Teng came for visit after I wake a while. 30minutes later, the SOHAI wheelchair guy came again, he say going I-sports, 2nd round physio. (o.O) Then I ask Teng to fetch my gf go out eat cause she has been accompanying me the whole day, sitting on the chair and play her sudoku whole day. Damn sakit hati to see that, but what can I do, I'm an OKU now. Haiz.

Then we split up, they go makan I go I-sport. After doing all the same routine, I meet up with them, they had their dinner, and it's my time to have mine. When I reach my ward, dinner is already serve on my bed. Here's my dinner:

See that, French grilled fish with Starbucks Javachip Double Blend.

Nah, actually, the Starbucks was bought by Ah Teng when they went out makan. He belanja me Starbucks leh. Haha. Really thank you Teng. I so damn miss Javachip. Cheers.

1st day of my knee surgery @ Island Hospital

I was admitted to Island Hospital, Penang today (11th May 2009) at around 3.00pm. Earlier in the morning my mom took my MRI and X-ray result to our family doctor and he recommend us to Island Hospital to see Dr. Aaron Lim. Kononya the best Orthopaedic & Sports Surgeon in Penang. So we reach the hospital aroud 1.00pm and straight to Dr.A's clinic. Cilaka, his clinic is exactly like a sports centre. It's actually his clinic + physiotherapy area but the whole place is like a colourful gym. Haha. And best of all, the place has it's own name iSport Centre. Cun leh. Haha. I was like WOW!!! when I reach there, then the meet up with the so call best orto in Penang. When we step into his clinic, niama, I've never been into such clinic before, it's like a richman's bedroom with old school Chinese design. Damn a lot of Made in China stuffs. All classic shits. Haha. As he check my knee and few stretches, he turn and say, "You damaged you ACL and meniscus". And I told him that Ya, I know that cause it's written there in the MRI report and he turn and say, "Oh, you did your MRI scan d?". This guy Godlike man, can know what happened even before he sees the MRI film. Haha. Memang 5star. After that he said that there's only one solution, which is my worst nightmare, SURGERY!!! And the price is 20k++. My mom's face turned to the WTF face. Haha. Then no choice have to agree with it and he says, "Ok, then your surgery I put you in tomorrow la". I was like Sai Em Sai so fast ah. Haha. Then he put me to a physio session after that, and guess what is my physio routine. Haha. I was told to play football with Nintendo Wii. I'm in love with this place. Haha. After the physio session I was brought to my room, all room fully vacant so I have to wait and end up they only manage to get me a 5 bedded room which I have to face some other farting and volcano breathing dudes. Haiz. So far no complaint yet about this hospital, rate it 5star. Haha. And the wireless connection here is extremely fast. Haha. It's 12.45am now and I'm still kinda worry about my surgery tomorrow which is scheduled at 1.30pm. Will update again time by time tomorrow. Wish my luck and pray for me.

Here it is, 12th of May 2009. The day has come and I shall face my destiny. Haha.

6.00am: Drug time. A nurse give me like 6-7 tablets of pills. No idea what is it for, Telan je la. Back to zzz.

8.00am: A nurse wake me up so that they could change the bed sheet. *arghhhh*

9.00am: Doc came and told me to go for another physiotherapy session before the op and the lab people will come over and take my blood for the op usage later. O.o I never donate blood before in my life and now kena liao, donate back to myself.

10.00am: The lab guy came and push me to the lab. At first they took a lil amount of my blood. Then after they check that sample to make sure my haemoglobin is enough to take out 200ml of blood for the later surgery usage.

That's my 1st time giving out so much blood.

10.45am: On the way to the physio area, fully packed. Have to wait for my turn. Mom and Ling is on their way. Did some physiotherapy routine until I fell asleep. Haha. Too bad today got no Wii to play. Haha.

Lube + a stick? Haha.Trying to extract out my skills. XD

11.30am: Mom and Ling reach, I'm not that scare anymore, but feel kinda dizzy cause earlier they took 200ml of blood from my body and I haven't ate anything since morning. So kinda hangover lidat.

1.00pm: Back to my hotel room to prepare for the op. Have to change to the Op shirt which kau kau expose my lovely ass. Haha. Whole body weak like hell. Then here comes my BMW bed which gonna fetch me to the Operating Teater. Whole body shaking like a vibrator. Haha.

1.15pm: Reach the OT, upon reaching there, the staffs there ordered Pizza delivery. Niama, I have to fasting for the whole morning then reach there see them so shiok can makan pizza. Cilaka betui.

That's me on my BMW bed on the way to OT

1.40pm: After waited for a while, the anaesthesiologist came to give me the anaesthetic drugs. Because my surgery is on my knee, so he have to inject the drug thru my spine bone so that the whole lower part of my body is numb. 4 jabs into my spine bone, KNN punya sakit. And all the OT staffs there can still joking and laughing beside be because today is Happy Nurses Day. haha.

1.45pm: After the drug start to take effect, WHOLE bottom part of my body is 100% numb, I can't feel shit seriously if you chop of my leg I also won't feel shit. Whole lower part includes all my toes, foot, both leg, ass, balls and best of all can't even feel my DRAGON. Diu Nia Seng, damn horrifying weih. Then they push me into the the OT. The moment of truth has come. Once in there my whole body is shivering, cold+scare. Then the anaesthesiologist came to me ask if I wanna asleep or not, I say Ok, put me to sleep then, and he says I let you take a nap for a while then middle of the Op you can wake up and see how it's done. Haha. I still manage to say bye-bye to him after he pump the drug into me.

Dunno what time: Woke up halfway of the Op, whole lower body view got blocked, only can see thru the screen, I can see 2 small tiny lil drill, drilling and cutting thru my ligaments. Kinda fun and I manage to sembang with the staffs there while the doc is chopping my knee. Haha.

5.00pm: Operation end, they pushed my out to the ICU area, and thank God beside my got a Mat Salleh chick. Quite hot eh!!! Haha. Then I starting to get my consciousness I started to play with the heart bpm machine, I pulled out the connection from my finger and the reading goes "-----------------" *tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit*. When the nurse came to me I put it back and it starts to Tit Tit again. Haha.

5.15pm: They push me out from the ICU area, maybe can't tahan I kacau their stuffs anymore. Right after go out from the OT door, I can see my mom and Ling waiting there, I'm kinda relief after seeing them. Then they push me to my room, still can't feel any shit below. I have to be carried and pull and push around. Haha.

9.30pm: Just wake up, took a nap after dinner at 6.30pm just now. All my aunt came to visit and my cousins too. The anaesthetic effect is fading away and the pain is coming lil by lil. Can start to feel my legs and scar already, and not to forget my DRAGON and 2 canon balls. Haha. But still my ass is still kinda numb numb dei. Got ang pau from my aunt, not bad, good business. Haha. So damn hungry now. Haha. Then when hungry, Mr.Panda called to kacau. Thinking of him is exactly like thinking of a piece of thick steak. Makes me even more hungry. Haha.JkJk, he called to ask how am I and when can I play back. *Reminder: Sensitive question like this better don't ask, if not I sepak you ass when I step into the pitch. Haha.

10.15pm: After chitty chat-chat with my gf on the phone, Allen called. I didn't inform him bout my surgery today, cause I don't want him to feel bad for causing me like this. But honestly, from the bottom of my heart, I seriously didn't blame him at all. It's an accicent and shits happen in sports. He called to ask bout my condition and that time only I let him know that I had a surgery this noon. He was shocked and AGAIN he apologized. Haha. Aduih, ini Allen ah. Then we continued our conversation for about 15minutes o.O Haha. Officially gay. LoL. He complaint about a Fat sohai, one of ur friend, who keeps fooling him around this and that. Haha. I ask him to diu kau that fucker but Allen the budak baik say wanna avoid controversial. LoL. Hear the way he talk makes me think of all of my usual suspects in KL. Allen, Lucan and Teng. Our sohai group talking bad bout sohai people and making sohai jokes. Haha. Kinda miss all of them (miss as in friends only ah). LoL.

11.00pm: All the anaesthatic 7788 gone and my knee starts to feel the umph!!! I told the nurse bout this and she brings me 4 pills, don't tiu bout it, just telan again. Haha. No mood for anything else. Damn freaking bored. And surprisingly I fell in love with blogging. I admit I used to stereotype and dislike bloggers. Yet see whats happening now, itulah dipanggil Karma. Haha.

11.30pm: Niama, I think the nurse gave me sleeping pills in one of the pills just now. My eyes like Park Ji Sung. Play Fifa Online kena tapau by AI 4-1. KNN CCB. Then my gf and my elder bro and my godbro called. After talking to them I decided to zZzZzz. Guess this is my last post for tonight. Night. Cheers.

This is the look of my leg after op. With ice packs on top of it.

And this is my sexy socks. Ain't it sexy?

My Vacation in Tawakal Hospital

Day 1

After being admitted in the midnight into Tawakal Hospital, the whole freaking night was uneasy for me, negative thoughts keep flying and popping out from my head. And the asshole beside me keep on farting and another asthma guy breathing and coughing like volcano. Switch on my laptop, but don't know what to do with it, and end up sleeping at around 5.00am. Mana tau, 7.30am, the nurse came in to check out our blood pressure and body temperature. After struggling a while, I manage to fall back to sleep, 8.30am, mak cik kantin came in to serve food. Niama, the people in this hospital so damn discipline leh. Haha. But I tell you, the food here, damn nice (to see). All the bowls, plates, cups and etc wrap nicely with wrapping plastic. BUT, the taste, OMFG, I rather eat at TARC canteen 2 for the whole month. Haha. Then comes the doc, a nerd looking 40s guy, came in with a nice smile and good manners. I act polite and ask him whats wrong with my knee, he replied, "So far the swell is kinda serious, so we can't do anything yet. So, I ask physio to put ice pack to reduce the swell and I'll come back to you". Within seconds, *poooffff* GONE!!! I don't even got a chance to ask another question. I control that time, maybe not as serious as I think so that fella slumber jer. Noon, my teamates and fewof my friends came to visit. Kena fuck by Ah Khang cause without me they don't have goalkeeper anymore. Haha.

Day 2

As usual, breakfast serves at 8.30am sharp. Woke up at that time which I'm kinda not used to it. After breakfast, comes the doc again. I thought he'll do something or something to tell me, but end up. Same shit. It's like repeating what he's saying previous day. Niama, I dulan liao this time, then I straight away ask him, what exactly is wrong with my knee? He says," Errmmm... Nothing serious la, so far still swelling we can't do anything yet (MCB I know la swelling at least you touch my knee or send me to some scanning to confirm ma)". Then I lagi dulan that time, I ask him do I need a MRI scan? He replied,"Errr... MRI ah? Ok also ah. It depends on whether our hospital wanna pay for the cost 1st or not cause MRI scan is expensive(CBK, just because I'm under insurance? Worst also I pay la. KNN CCB)". Then I insist to have the MRI scan and he say up to me. Then *pooooffff* GONE!!! yet again. Then his nurse came back and say my MRI scan is tomorrow at Sentosa Medical Centre (which also means, you stay in our hotel 1 more night so that we can slaughter you more). That time I kau kau dulan and I called my mom and tell her this COCK doctor can't do shit. She say she'll come over tomorrow with my dad to fetch me back Penang for treatment. So I just sohai sohai need to waste another day there. Then the usual timetable and routine in hospital, lunch@12.00pm, high tea@3.00pm, and best of all dinner@6.30pm. By 9pm I'm hungry again. Haha. Thankfully my gf was there the whole day to share my boredom. Feel bad for her, ask her to balik she insist to stay there.

Day 3

After breakfast, I'm preparing to go for the MRI scan which the nurse told me last night that they'll fetch me there at 9.00am sharp. The nurse only came to me at 9.45am and she said," You are going for the MRI scan rite? Fast, late already". Diu Nia Seng, I've been waiting for 45minutes and she came in like as if I'm the one who is late. KNN CCB again. I was sent to Sentosa Medical Centre by ambulance, 1st time. kinda creapy inside. Haha. Tell you, the driver memang 5star. Fast, Furious & Freaky. Upon reaching there, SMC is 10times better than Tawakal. Nice building and facilities with good service. The person in charge came to me and straight push me to the MRI room. It's like a Nasa training centre, with weird robotic machine. Haha. Then I was brief that what should and shouldn't do during the scanning process as it's a 45minutes scan. During the scanning, the radiation is so damn fucking strong. Once I close my eyes, I felt like floating. Haha. After 45minutes, the result came out and I have to wait for the FFF ambulance for about 1hour. When I reach Tawakal, the nerdhai doctor came again, and I ask him how was the result? He replied(in arrogant tone),"Well, this is the result we've been thought off all this while". I keep my head down and curse him in my heart. Then I told him that my parents are coming over to fetch me back. He said, "OK!! Its fine with me". *pooooffffff* GONE!!! and never see him again after that. After that I have Google the MRI result myself and more or less I get to know what is wrong and where is the damaged area. Then after a short while my parents came, my gf went to lead them to the hospital from Pudu. Allen came to fetch all of us back to my house to pack up my stuffs. Then my dad fetch us back to Penang with my car. The whole freaking journey was so torturing, everytime the car shake or ran into some holes, it feels like a bubble POPPED in my knee. But I manage to to reach Penang without any harm although my dad kinda fell asleep most of the time while driving. Haha.

So, my advice is. Never ever go to Tawakal Hospital, I mean if serious case la. Their aimis to delay your stay there as long as possible so that they can slaughter you as much as they want. The lift, facilities, foods, and bed are as cacat as General Hospital. And I would really like to thank Lucan and Allen for helping me with the admission especially Allen, he has been visiting me everyday after work and accompany me till late. Fetch my gf back and fetch me go makan. Thanks a lot man, only God will repay your kindness. And again, I seriously didn't blame you(Allen) for this shit. It's just an accident and it's football. Anything can happen. 

Cheers all.

Darkest Day In My Life

Well, didn't know that I'll start blogging because of this. I just don't know how to say it out, I guess this is the best way. May, 5th 2009, is the officially the darkest day in my life, a tragic that might affect my football life forever or maybe I just have to forget about this game. What actually happened was, I was playing with all my mates, the usual weekly futsal match. That night was the 'farewell' game for this semester because the next day most of us will be going back to our hometown. Didn't know that it end up to farewell for me.

Here is the story, around 10-15minutes into the game I was knocked down by Allen 0n the knee. I was defending and he's attacking for the opponent side. I didn't noticed that he was behind me that time, as the ball flew past me, I turn my body and within seconds, Allen came from behind and BANG!!! His whole body landed on my right knee. I can hear like fire cracker inside my knee. I scream as I never scream that loud before. Laying on the floor can't even feel my right leg. The rest of the lads don't really bother me at all, which kinda pissed me off. I keep on screaming like a pussy for about 2-3minutes then only Lucan came to me and ask, "Are you ok?" I told him, "My leg is gone". Allen stood up and came to me and after that only all of the others started to come to me. I told them this time is FOR REAL!!! cause I never ever experienced such pain in my life and I can't fucking feel my right leg (below knee). At that time, I thought that I've dislocate my knee.

After few minutes of making out with the futsal floor, all of them except Noel, Lucan and Allen continue to whack the ball as if nothing happened. Then Noel, Lucan, Allen, and Fat Jason carry me out of the court. I just lay on the bench and tears started to flow out from my eyes. In my mind that time, "That is it Wallace Yeoh, you are no longer a footballer". I told Lucan to send me to the hospital, and I have to be carried out to the car. Allen and Lucan fetch me to Tawakal Hospital.

Upon reaching there, as usual, Accident&Emergency entrance and wheelchair yet again. It's like deja vu to my previous admission there (food poisoning). Waited there for like 20minutes for the radiologist because after midnight they work on call only. X-ray man came, took 2 pictures of my knee and when he pass me the result I ask him, "Is it bad?" He replied, "Bone perfect, BUT ligament kinda big problem". I was like OMFG!!! Confirm GG this time, I told myself. then push me out again to the A&E bed. Which the doctor came, touch my knee for the 1st time, then she said, "Your bone all OK, joint got problem lah boy. I admit you in 1st then tomorrow I pass to Ortopaedic". Then a male nurse came to me and say,"Ok, sekarang saya mau cucuk u" (o.O i was like MCB, fuck off). Then I ask what is the jab for, he says it's pain killer and I ask if can don't cucuk ah, cause I hate injection, especially in the ass. He says,"Tak bolehlah boy, nanti malam nie you sakit susah lah" (inner meaning, if you don't take this jab we can't charge you drugs on midnight rate). I gave up and say CINCAI lah.

Lucan and Allen went to settle my admission procedure, and I have to wait at the creapy area alone with an asthma guy beside breathing like Godzilla. I try to contact my family that time but no one answer, all of them were sleeping untill I called my elder bro, which he was also halfway sleeping and I ask him to call my uncle(my insurance agent) and see whether will the insurance company cover sports injury, and my uncle too at that time zZzZzZzz.

Lucan and Allen came back and the nurse push me to my hotel room which both of them just booked for me. 4 bedded room with free meals. 90bucks a nite with shit conditions. No choice cause the insurance only will cover 120bucks a nite and the nearest to my room rate is 150buck.

Then both of them went back to clean up and take my stuffs for me. And I guess this is the best moment to call my gf cause I don't really wanna let her know cause she is having her paper the next day. But I still have to contact her after all, so I still have to tell the truth. I told her nothing serious and ask her to focus on her paper. After hang up the phone, a lot of things poped out in my mind, and I started to emo again, I admit, I cried again fearing that I might not get to step into the pitch in the future. No one knows how much football mean for me.

I called Ezra after that to tell him that I won't be able to join them at Green Rose for Man Utd vs Arsenal game. He was shocked to hear that I in the hospital and he came for visit(1st visitor) after he finished his meeting with clients. As usual, he came laugh at me 1st then only ask how was my condition. =.= He came to sembang with me for about 30minutes then he went back cause Man Utd game starting soon. After a while Allen, Lucan and Kenny came with 4 packs of Green Rose's Nasi Lemak Ayam. I was suppose with meet up with all my MU kakis there to watch the game that night. They say since I can't make it at least I still get to eat the Nasi Lemak. We went down to the hospital lobby to watch the game with 3 other nurses and another patient which luckily all of them are Devil's fans too. And we enjoy our Nasi Lemak on a table which is suppose to be a table for some form filling stuffs. The nurse even provide us with newspaper so that we don't mess up the table. Wow, service better than mamak. Haha.

Thank God Man Utd won 3-1 that match. At least something to cheer me up a bit. After sending me back to my room, 3 of them went back leaving me alone, thankfully Kenny brought my laptop along. Can't sleep cause keep on thinking of the incident, I took out my laptop and play Left4Dead. Trust me, playing Left4Dead (hospital map) in the middle on the night in a hospital is awesome. I was like what if the zombies attack this hospital, I'll for sure be the 1st mother fucker to kena makan cause I can't even walk. Haha.

Well, I guess thats it so far, will continue my hospital stay in the next post.